work earlier. Two hours more to get my work done. Hmm. What do I feel like doing?
Either Way, I’ve got to get up, make coffee, get ready, and pack my stuff while I’m thinking about all the things I will have to do today: phone calls to make, people to talk to, events to prepare for, reports to run. Then my brain starts: Does my husband have clean work clothes? I have to iron his shirts. Oh, and then dinner tonight! What do we have at home? Do I need to go to the grocery store? I also promised to help a friend….but
when??
I’m way too busy. I’m already stressed and have not even left my bed yet. It’s all in my head. Work. Family. Home. Myself. What am I doing wrong? What do I give up? Lord, help me get all this done today - I pray. Surely You know I can’t give up work (it’s a necessity). I can’t give up family (part of my life). I can’t give up home (got to live in some civilized circumstances). Friends? (I don’t have that many and I really don’t have that much time for them. I’m too busy.)
God, I’m desperate! I need Your help every moment of every day to get through it. I've got to get my list done!
“This is why I tell you: Don’t worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Isn’t life more than food and the body more than clothing?” Matthew 6:25
Life is more than food and clothing. Don’t I remember? Did I grow so much accustomed to the “church life” that I don’t see that the need I have is not God’s help with my To Do List?
No, the real need I have is to be reminded that He –the God of the Universe - loved me enough to prioritize my greatest need, to be saved from sin, death & hell. This was & still is His priority for sinners.
He prayed, listened to the Father above, and did what needed to be done: Died for me I can’t go on every morning thinking about my own agenda, my own lists. I’m going to pray, listen to the Father, and do what needs to be done: His agenda in my life.
“In that day they will say, “Surely this is our God; we trusted in him, and he saved us. This is the Lord, we trusted in him; let us rejoice and be glad in his salvation.”
Isaiah 25:9
I will rejoice and be glad every morning of every day He is giving me to live in this lifetime. I will rejoice, praise Him and be glad, because I know and remember: He has
made the way for me for a much better life for eternity. And eternity is a very, very, very long time…
Krisztina White